We have been home a week and I am still trying to figure out what happened. Why would God take us all the way to Ukraine to find our daughter and then bring us home without her? I know it is not for me to ask why but just to trust in where He leads and what He tells me to do. For the most part people have been considerate of what we went through but there are those that have no tact and those that just avoid us rather than bring up the subject. It is amazing how much people can cheer when you are in the midst of doing something great but where are they when it doesn't work out. I am so glad that I can count on God and that He knows the possible when I see the impossible.
Our life from here consists of raising my 17 yr old son and 4 foster children. We are trying to enjoy this time with them although it has been very hard to transition back. God sees my brokenness and I just pray every day that this feeling of something missing will subside. Sometimes we have to be broken to be used to glorify Him.
I am going to try and continue to blog, although I won't be able to give specifics about our foster children. Thanks to all who did follow our adoption journey and gave us encouragement. I am going to keep the title of my blog because I feel our adoption journey is not over, just going in a different direction.
Tina
Are you guys interested in adopting a 16 year old girl from Ukraine with cerebal palsey? on another blog i'm following the lady is there right now adopting a son and has met this girl called "Beautiful" (and by looking at the pictures of her she sure is!) Anyway apparently she needs to be adopted by April or become permanently unadoptable. i'm gonna send the link about her and the other lady's blog to your gmail account.
ReplyDeletei love and admire your courage to trust the Lord with whatever comes your way. You are a shining example of Proverbs 3:5-6!
Tina - Bless you. I'm so sorry to hear about this. I, myself, would also feel devastated. I also would question why God would send us but then send us back empty-handed and broken-hearted. Oh, but our Father knows what He's doing. I'm so thankful that the Lord I serve does not make mistakes, does not lead His children astray, and does nothing without a purpose. I pray that you would be able to rest in His peace and that He would comfort you and fill that broken, empty place you are experiencing. And He has a child for you. And He'll bring you together in His perfect timing. And I know that in the midst of raw heartbreak, that that doesn't always bring immediate comfort. And healing takes time. But it will come, and it will come full and overflowing. It will come because He promises that it will. God bless you as you serve Him through raising your son and your foster children. You are doing wonderful service to your King. He knows the desires of your heart, and He is faithful to carry out His perfect plan for yours and your family's life.
ReplyDeleteAnd by the way, Tina, I want to thank you for your very kind and encouraging words you left on my blog today. God used you to bless me today with your gracious words.